我打开手机,习惯性的滑动到信息页面,突然看到小鱼的名字,这个熟悉而又让人心跳加速的名字。随着我的心率逐渐加快,我颤抖的手指迫不及待地点开了那个信息:我要结婚了,新郎不是大友,但也祝福我吧!看着这个消息,我不禁感到一阵欣喜:10年了,小鱼,你终于还是肯放下了。
回想起当初,我介绍小鱼给比我们高一年级的大友认识。两人虽然只发过短信聊过天,还一起去校门口喝过奶茶,但小鱼却对大友产生了一种深厚的情感,她甚至记录在一本精致的日记上。这一切看似正常,因为我们都是刚刚从高中生活中走出来的大龄少女,每个人都渴望投入恋爱的世界。
很快,我们就习惯了小鱼对大友时时赞美,即便表现得有些夸张,有时候还嚷嚷着以后非他不嫁。但我们当时只是笑话小鱼思想单纯,一杯奶茶就被骗走了。没想到几天后,大友拒绝了小鱼的表白,小鱼跑回宿舍哭了一整晚。
本以为事情将会告一段落,却发现小fish继续将大友纳入她的计划,誓要攻破这座碉堡。她开始用各种方式倒追大友,从假装多次偶遇到买早点……但每次都以失败告终。大友似乎是一个不开窍的人,他一次又一次地拒绝,而小fish却一点也不介意,只是不断地嘻哈围绕着他转。
直到那天,大友生日,我们整个宿舍的人倾巢而出,为她在他的必经之路摆了一圈玫瑰花和蜡烛。但就在充满祝福的圆圈里,小fish遇到了毫不犹豫擦肩而过、视而不见的大友……
每次大friend把small fish气得跑回宿舍哭,我们都会骂他不是东西,不识好歹,还怀疑他可能是隐性瞒名GAY,所以对Small Fish的一往情深视而不见。不过现实就是那么狗血,当我们看到Big Friend牵着一个师姐在操场散步,这消息对于Small Fish来说,就像晴天霹雳一样,无论Big Friend再怎么完美,都成为了别人的盘中餐。
Small Fish失落了一阵子后,也找到了另一个懂得疼爱她的男朋友。不过我们察觉到Small Fish有所不同,她依然坚持为经常受伤的大Friend送去跌打膏药,为感冒的大Friend献上关切的问候……甚至当Big Friend竞选学生会会长的时候,Small Fish打着“好哥们”的旗号,当仁不让加入拉拉队帮忙拉票造势。后来Big Friend竞选成功,小Fish收到了分手短信,却表现得很开心。
这条消息比起当初Big friend的地面奸情,更让我措手不及。我想起工作时遇到的男版Small fish,他比Small fish幸运,因为女神答应与他牵手相伴。在某个夏日正午,当男版Small fish打电话给女神提醒她注意身体状况,他竟然收到了女神抽泣声。一边哭还一边责怪男版Small fish不要再爱她,让人迷惑无端。他真挚赔礼道歉,最终女神娇滴滴地说之前都是你亲自送山楂片给我吃,现在却让我自己去买,这个“山楂片之恋”故事传遍公司,我们都被女神雷得里焦外嫩,一边感叹女神太能作,一边笑男人太傻痴情。
我渐渐明白,有些人一直念念不忘某段感情,并不能说明被念的人有多好,而是有人拿得起却放不了下。大Friend之所以变得那么高冷,Girlfriend之所以那么作,都因为他们被用尽力气抬举到了高度,所以才有俯视一切的心态。而像这样的小Fish总是坚持认为,只要自己付出,对方迟早会接纳自己,也总以为这条漫漫长路的尽头会是一份期待已久的情侣关系,却不知道这些无知付出的代价已经将自己的价值和尊严卖掉,还有什么资格谈情说爱?
如今,我终于等来了关于Little Miss披上的幸福婚纱的小新闻,说起来虽然新郎不是Mr. Big but I still feel happy for her, glad she finally broke free from the curse of Mr. Big.
In reality, people like Little Miss are everywhere, and their stories are countless. I remember a similar story about a male version of Little Miss who was lucky to have his love reciprocated by the girl he cherished. He would remind her to take care of herself in the summer heat and even bought her mountain hawthorn candies as medicine for sore throats. But one day, she suddenly burst into tears on the phone and scolded him for not loving her anymore, only to reveal that she had been buying those candies herself all along.
This "Mountain Hawthorn Candy Romance" became a legendary story in our company office, leaving us both amazed at how Girl could be so manipulative while laughing at Man's naivety.
I gradually realized that it's not just about who you love or how much you love them; it's about whether they make you better or help you find your way back home.
So to all those brave souls chasing after someone with unwavering dedication,
If you can truly feel that warmth when with them,
And if they can make your heart grow bigger,
Then keep loving them without hesitation.
But if not,
Don't waste any more time in this abnormal relationship.
Find someone who truly loves and understands you,
And enjoy a genuine romance instead!